Monday, January 31, 2011

Twenty Two is here!



It's my birthday!!

So glad I'm not 21 anymore

22 is going to be amazing

So excited for what's to come!!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

6 Month Bandiversary!

My how time has flown!

Cannot believe that 24 weeks ago I was 30kg heavier and alot less happier
In total I've lost 30.8kg (68lbs)
I've lost a total of 105cms (41.3inches)

Huge!

My confidence has gone through the roof
My clothing style has evolved
I don't obsess about food anymore
I enjoy exercise

I'm looking forward to the next 6 months!
If I keep this up I could probably get close to my goal weight by the end of this year
So excited!!

Here is a snapshot of the past 6 months...


July 2010 126.6kg


December 2010 around 98kg

Friday, January 28, 2011

Why Protein?

I'm still a bit confused about why we need so much protein
I've basically taken it for granted and just try to take as much as possible
But I don't really understand it's importance

This morning I made an awesome protein shake
1 Cup lite milk
1 tbs peanut butter
2 tbs protein powder
Didn't realise it turned out to be a whopping 353 calories (34.8gms protein)
Is this too much?

I'm so confused!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

ooo an award!


Hello lovely ladies

Sorry I'm a bit late at getting to this!

First of all thankyou to three dolls who nominated me for the Stylish Blogger Award
Thanks V @ The Babbling Bandit, Sam @ Banded for me & Kellie @ Something about Kellie


"The rules of accepting this award are: Thank the person who gave you the award, reveal seven things about yourself, and nominate 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered or love. Then leave a comment on their blog letting them know they've been nominated.."


Seven Things About Me:

1. I've never been in a relationship...really, really sucks! I'm hoping that with my new found confidence I'll be able to bag a nice Englishman on my European travels!

2. I used to be able to speak Japanese...I was actually at the top of my class at school. However since then I have had no reason to practice and barely remember any of it!

3. I'm addicted to TV. Seriously, I can sit there and watch TV shows 24/7...now I try and fit it into my exercise

4. I'm scared of birds, insects, large animals, rodents, little animals...basically any animal species except dogs and cats

5. Alot of people mistake me for a teenager. Especially now since I've lost weight, people comment that I look about 16 years old

6. Oh I'm also scared of fish and strange things touching me in the ocean. I really must get over that fear if I want to make the most of a European summer!

7. I'm graduating in April!! Bachelor of Psychology (Honours)!

Okay so about these nominations...it seems like just about everyone has recieved an award. So, if you HAVEN'T yet been nominated, please let me know and I will officially nominate you!!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Finally starting to enjoy exercise

After 22 years, I've finally started to look forward to exercising!
This is a big thing for me
I HATED any sort of physical activity
I was the type of girl who would fake having my period every week to get out of gym class at school
For my birthday, I asked my parents for two things...

1. The biggest loser wii game
2. A bodybugg or a similar kind of gadget

See a pattern?
Both are exercise related!

I've been watching reruns of the biggest loser everyday
and seeing those contestants get pushed to their limits has finally made me realise that just because I'm fat doesn't mean I'm going to have a heart attack and die from exercising!

The biggest loser game is AH-MAZZZZIINGGGG!
Seriously, I can't rave about it enough
My body hates me right now and is hurting in places that I didn't even know existed =P
I actually look forward to my workouts
and it makes me sweat like crazy

I just bought the bodymediafit armband and I'm so excited to start using it

My only task now is to focus on my eating
I lasted on the optifast for 2 days because giving in
and I gave up on the 5 Day pouch test on day 3
I don't eat much throughout that day, but when I do eat it is always junk

My mum had diabetes, yet she still buys so much chocolate and crap that it makes me wonder/worry about how seriously she is taking this
I hate having junk food in the house, both for my sake and her sake
But everytime we have visitors and she opens that box of chocolates, I end up craving them every second of the day

Enough is enough,
Tomorrow I will not let a chocolate touch my lips

Friday, January 21, 2011

5 day pouch test

Well Day 2 of optifast was great
In the past 2 days I've lost 1.4kg (3.08lbs) which I'm happy with
At least it gave me the kick start I needed
I am no longer craving junk food or snacks

My current weight is 96kg
That means this week I will need to lose 1kg to get to my birthday goal of 95kg
Seems a lot more possible now

I've been reading a lot about this 5 day pouch test
Over xmas time I've been having problems with a lot of foods getting stuck and my initial reaction would be to go and vomit the food up
But after reading about the 5DPT, I've realised that the uncomfortable feeling in your chest just means you're full?
I still don't know for sure, but whenever I think I am stuck it's not as painful as everyone makes it out to be
To me, being stuck is just feeling a bit tight and uncomfortable in my sternum area

I wasn't planning on doing the pouch test
but I'd already done 2 days optifast so why not give it a shot

Day 3 is soft proteins: eggs, tuna etc
This morning I scrambled one egg for breakfast and wow I can already feel that restriction I once had
Could only stomach half of it...only a few bites really

Oh how I missed proper restriction!

Thursday, January 20, 2011



WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I've just passed the 30kg mark
So far (since my heaviest of 126.6kg) I have lost a whopping 30.2kg (66.44lbs)
What an awesome feeling!

Current weight is 96.4kg (212lbs)
My next major goal is to be under 200lbs

I can't believe it has been 160 days/23 weeks/5.75 months since surgery!
Nearly hitting my 6 mnth bandiversary!
It has gone so quick

Day one on optifast went well
Everything was perfect except I snuck in a few cheeky jellybeans
Day two is about to commence, and I know that I will reach 95kg by my bday :)

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Mission Birthday

Date: 31st January
Countdown: 12 days, 1.7weeks
Goal: to be 95kg
Amount to lose: 2.3kg

I HAVE to do this to prove to myself that with hard work and determination I can beat this lap band and I can get out of this rut I'm in

I've convinced my dad to do optifast with me for a few days
Mainly because I want to get rid of it lol
But also because if I have someone do it with me then I'm more likely to stick to it!

Gross I hated this taste :P

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I was heavier than that?!

Wow I was reading through old journals from the past year
and to my horror I recorded a almighty weight of 126.6kg in June of 2010
I thought I was a kilogram lighter than that
I know it's only a kilo, but any number higher than what I currently am is way way way too heavy for me!
Can you imagine a 21 year old, 5" tall girl weighing 126.6kg (278.5lbs)!!
That is HUGE

I can look back at pictures and think woah I was huge
but I don't actually remember feeling or looking that big

Therefore, I am going to change my stats to reflect my highest ever weight
It's only a kilogram heavier than my pre optifast weight, but seeing that number might give me the motivation I need

I finally measured myself again last night
Although progress has slowed down, it's amazing to see in numbers how many cm's I've lost



Mum wanted to see some of my before photos
I have never showed her any of the horrible ones I put up on here
Usually whenever I find a photo of myself I would remove it from the computer and save it somewhere for only me to see
She was shocked to see how much I had actually changed in such a short time

Everyone can already sense how much more confident I am and how much I am starting to enjoy life

I feel so happy right now
I just wish my weight loss could speed up just a bit more before Europe
So ready for my fill on Feb 3rd!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Confessions of a junk food addict...and NSV!

I have been eating horribly these past few weeks
To the point where my body is rebelling and I am constant feeling sick in the stomach
Everytime my parents go away I pig out
Thank God they are only gone for a week
But I should be stronger than this...I should know by now that I can't stuff my face anymore
I'm still losing slowly but I really need to rethink my goals and my diet

Big NSV though!
Okay so I think I've said this many times before
but I am obsessed with a local band called Stealing O'neal
They're music is amazing, they're good to look at and they are all round nice boys
I have seen them seriously about 50 times or more over the past four years and I have never once been able to buy a tee shirt because they only stock small sizes
In October I decided to buy one...a few sizes too small
I tried it on yesterday and it finally fit! and I didn't have to squeeze into it either, it was so comfortable!

Here's a picture...
It is a very plain t-shirt, but I love it



Also I just have to say how amazing those pants are!
They're the new work pants I bought from Target and they are miracle pants
They suck everything in and make me feel great!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Pray for Queensland

Just a note to ask for all of you to think about all those people caught up in the devastating Queensland floods

My parents are travelling up to Cairns (northern Queensland) and it's a bit scary, although the floods are occurring in Southern Queensland

Such a horrible disaster =(

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Goodbye to elephant butt!

Okay let me explain,
My work pants have become a little loose...
to the point where my butt looks like it sags to my knees!
People at work began laughing at me for being too stubborn to buy a new pair
but I seriously need to save money so that was always my excuse

Well today I got so sick of it that I decided to buy a new pair
I bought them a little tight, because I'm hoping that soon enough they will begin to loosen :)

Old Pants...


New pants...

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2010 changed my life

Just look at this horrid photo of me from January 2010
It was a family photo and I fought hard not to be in it
I feel sorry for this girl
You could see the pain in her eyes
I never want to meet her again

January 5th...

is the day that I will get back on track

I think I celebrated a bit too much this holiday season
Although I didn't pig out as much as previous years, I still feel groggy, bloated and sluggish

Tomorrow I'm going to have my optifasts, salad and vegies and see how I go

It's been way too easy for me to fall back to my old habits
As much as I tell myself that I don't need that extra square of chocolate I still end up bloody eating it!

Wish me luck, that optifast is going to suck!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Big Weekend Photo Post!

Happy New Year everyone!
This year is truly going to be an amazing one
I feel happier, healthier and more confident
and I'm off to Europe in 4 months, what more could a girl want?!

I live in Melbourne, Australia
and New Years Eve was a scorcher, 40 degrees Celsius (104 Fahrenheit!)
My sister and I had booked a hotel smack bang in the middle of the city
It was the perfect location to walk down to the main festivities and fireworks
Instead of just sitting around and waiting, we went to the Crown Casino to just chill out and have a few drinks
The Casino is amazing! If you are ever in Melbourne you HAVE to visit the Crown, it has such an awesome vibe to it
We went to a place called The Pub, had a few drinks and a bit of a dance
Then we went down to watch the fireworks along the river...they really weren't that spectacular, but it was nice to be in amongst the excited crowd

Because New Years Day fell on a weekend, the Public holiday was set for the Monday (today) so last night there were alot of clubs and events open to Part-ayyyy!
My friends and I went to an event called Plastic
One entry fee, entry to TWO clubs and about 14 bands!
Seriously my cup of tea
I love live music, and my fave band was playing to we just had to go!
It was awesome, had a bit too many drinks but made sure I danced it all off

Here are some pics from the weekend...