My Rescue Is Possible

This weekend I went to an amazing gig and for the first time I felt somewhat confident and comfortable in a crowd One of the bands was Aussie band Stealing O'neal, who are my all time most favourite group of boys ever I've seen them over 30 times now but have never really had the guts to approach them for a chat just because I feel so insecure (and because they are damn good looking =P) This might sound lame but my ultimate goal is to one day feel confident enough to just randomly start talking to them at a gig The next show of theirs is on the 2nd January...not long now but I am super determined to lose a bit more weight until then I'll keep you updated =P Oh and just on the band front... This fill is great. I haven't gotten stuck and I'm eating alot less and less frequently I think I might stick with this level of restriction until after Xmas and see how I go Yesterday I decided to go through all my boxes of clothes which I've stored skinny clothes and all my ...

I'm still taking it easy but I've definitely felt some restriction today I think alot has to do with me expecting restriction because I just haven't thought about food as much today Here's hoping I get back on track quickly!

Just got back from a good fill Fingers crossed this one is perfect Since my unfill I have been out of control I still lost a little bit of weight but not as much as I would have liked My fill Dr is amazing by the way She gets the needle in and out so quickly I don't feel a thing At my unfill I got 1cc taken out and it made a huge difference Today she put in .5cc so I should be able to feel some good restriction Excited! Hopeful!

I keep looking at photos and thinking wow I've come such a long way and it's only been three months I have six more months to go until I leave for Europe and I'm confident that I can look alot better than I do now

Yep, one exactly like this one I wish we could just drink a potion or take a pill that would motivate us to help ourselves Seriously I feel so stupid I feel like I'm sabotaging myself from losing weight and being happy I have 23 weeks until I get to Europe and I need to lose a heap more weight before I can feel comfortable at the beach or in Summer clothes If I lose 1/2 a kilo per week I can get down to around 91kg (200lbs)...that is still way too high for someone my height If I lose 1 kilo per week I can get down to the 80kg mark (180lbs) I cannot wait to have this fill I've found that once I start getting regular fills I have been really motivated and determined to lose a whole heap of weight before I go see the doctor again 1 more week until my fill...I'm staying strong (I guess :P)

First of all, I'm sorry for not posting this week I honestly didn't know what to write I am eating horribly and not exercising...I'm just not motivated I did lose half a kilo this week, surprisingly though because I have been out of control The only good news I have is that I have booked and paid for my European adventure! At the moment I have a 6 month ticket! I am so excited, but I won't be leaving until 1st May 2011 so I still have a while to go You would think that I would be working hard to lose weight now because of this, but no, I am the laziest person ever =( I need restriction I can eat anything and everything and I just don't have any self control Other than that I really have no other news I've still been reading all your blogs though!

Man have I been eating too much since my unfill I kept blaming it on my period, but now it's just stupidity when I was too tight, I knew when to stop because I would get that unbearable pain in my chest now I feel like I can eat and eat and eat until I go blue in the face And I'm eating alot of junk I really hate this lack of control I know that being too tight was very unhealthy and was a horrible experience but I'm desperate for another fill