My Rescue Is Possible

I have had enough of constantly having discomfort in my chest and back Today for lunch I had about 4 pieces of penne and some bolognese sauce I made sure I cut up the pieces really tiny and chewed really well Everything was fine, then I decided to go to Ikea with my parents The drive was about an hour long About half way there, I was so uncomfortable I had to get dad to stop the car while I scrambled to find the nearest bathroom to vomit It came back up and I was fine A couple of hours later I was really thirsty so I had a sip of water, 10 mins later and I was rushing back to the bathroom If this doesn't mean I'm too tight then I have no other explanation I just want to eat I'm not hungry, but I need food just to feel normal I'm calling up first thing in the morning to get an unfill. I'm not sure that the protocol is but they better be able to fit me in because I don't think I can last another day Has this happened to anyone? It really is driving me insane

I think I really do I've been losing weight so rapidly, but I haven't been exercising Although I like losing the weight, I don't like the fear of getting stuck whenever I eat It's 10.46am, I had half a glass of milk at 9.30am (couldn't get it all down) and I just had about 3teaspoons of baked beans and I'm getting that stuck feeling in my back I just can't get myself to ask for an unfill I went to the doctors yesterday and I was stupid enough to let her give me another slight fill when I knew I didn't really need it I think I may call the doctor on monday and get .5cc taken out to see how I feel

I love that I'm losing weight, but I miss food My friends invited me out to lunch today I haven't really eaten out since surgery so I was a bit scared She suggested Nandos. Not my fave choice but they wanted it so I went along I was weighing up between the chips or the coleslaw I expected the coleslaw to be like the KFC one...mushy! But no, it was stringy and chunky and I only had about two bites and gave up I feel miserable, not because I got a bit stuck but because I can't enjoy going out with my friends anymore I'm too scared I'll get stuck and have an embarrassing moment in public I don't know how I'm going to keep this up for the rest of my life

I handed in the finished product of my thesis yesterday and it felt darn good to know that four years of hard work is finally over I don't get my results until November 11 but I'm pretty sure I at least passed and can now graduate I just don't know what to do with myself now! I've asked for more hours at work, and you would think with 2 jobs I'm bound to have a shift everyday, but that's not the case. I'm begging them for shifts but it might take a fortnight for the bosses to organise new rosters The last few days have been gorgeous and sunny So I've been spending most of my days outside reading but that gets boring after a while My exercise regime is non-existent at the moment I just don't have the motivation I think I need someone to push me around and bully me into exercising I really would love a personal trainer, but I can't afford it right now I'm still losing weight pretty consistently I'm proud to say that I haven't had a stuc...

Cannot believe how quickly I've lost it It's been 10 weeks since surgery and I lost 10kg with Optifast so I've averaged out a kilo (2.2lb) lost a week since surgery I'm so glad it's been working But I know I still have a lot more to go, and I don't expect the next 20kg to come of as quickly I went shopping with my sister yesterday and it was a really horrible reality check Although I've lost a lot, I still feel uncomfortable in public and still can't fit into alot of clothes Arrgghh I'm more determined as ever to keep going with this =D Just a reminder... Pre Surgery July 2010 & October 2010 (please ignore the face haha)

Pheww that was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders! I'm pretty happy with it My supervisors emailed me and asked if I wanted to to recommend me for a PhD scholarship I was so shocked, I didn't think I was doing that well this year but obviously I was wrong So now I have no more university or schooling until I decide to go back!! Also, last night I went to watch Eat,Pray,Love I thought it was amazing I wish I had the time and money to go escape like that It just made me that more excited about my European trip next year! Band related news now... This fill has been bitter sweet I've lost about a kilo so far so I'm happy with that But I've been getting stuck alot Today I couldn't even eat lunch because nothing would go down I don't want to get unfilled but I don't think I'll get a fill for a while I'll see how it goes I also went to my hairdresser today She's a family friend and I haven't seen her since a few weeks before surgey She was so...

okay so lately I have been PBing after just about everything I eat, to the point that I'm too scared to eat certain foods it's gross, and I am petrified at the thought of eating out I guess I'm still getting used to portions and I feel like I've been eating next to nothing oh, and I don't get that "warning signal" that you are supposed to get that lets you know when to stop eating I feel as though when I eat just one bite too much it just comes straight up I don't think I'm too tight though, I mean I can still eat, just sometimes it won't go down I'm scheduled in for another fill on the 27th and right now I'm considering not even getting it depending on how much I lose until then But did this happen to anyone in their first couple of months? I'm hoping it's just a matter of trial and error and eventually I'll learn when to stop eating!