My Rescue Is Possible

I have had enough of constantly having discomfort in my chest and back Today for lunch I had about 4 pieces of penne and some bolognese sauce I made sure I cut up the pieces really tiny and chewed really well Everything was fine, then I decided to go to Ikea with my parents The drive was about an hour long About half way there, I was so uncomfortable I had to get dad to stop the car while I scrambled to find the nearest bathroom to vomit It came back up and I was fine A couple of hours later I was really thirsty so I had a sip of water, 10 mins later and I was rushing back to the bathroom If this doesn't mean I'm too tight then I have no other explanation I just want to eat I'm not hungry, but I need food just to feel normal I'm calling up first thing in the morning to get an unfill. I'm not sure that the protocol is but they better be able to fit me in because I don't think I can last another day Has this happened to anyone? It really is driving me insane

I think I really do I've been losing weight so rapidly, but I haven't been exercising Although I like losing the weight, I don't like the fear of getting stuck whenever I eat It's 10.46am, I had half a glass of milk at 9.30am (couldn't get it all down) and I just had about 3teaspoons of baked beans and I'm getting that stuck feeling in my back I just can't get myself to ask for an unfill I went to the doctors yesterday and I was stupid enough to let her give me another slight fill when I knew I didn't really need it I think I may call the doctor on monday and get .5cc taken out to see how I feel

I love that I'm losing weight, but I miss food My friends invited me out to lunch today I haven't really eaten out since surgery so I was a bit scared She suggested Nandos. Not my fave choice but they wanted it so I went along I was weighing up between the chips or the coleslaw I expected the coleslaw to be like the KFC one...mushy! But no, it was stringy and chunky and I only had about two bites and gave up I feel miserable, not because I got a bit stuck but because I can't enjoy going out with my friends anymore I'm too scared I'll get stuck and have an embarrassing moment in public I don't know how I'm going to keep this up for the rest of my life

I handed in the finished product of my thesis yesterday and it felt darn good to know that four years of hard work is finally over I don't get my results until November 11 but I'm pretty sure I at least passed and can now graduate I just don't know what to do with myself now! I've asked for more hours at work, and you would think with 2 jobs I'm bound to have a shift everyday, but that's not the case. I'm begging them for shifts but it might take a fortnight for the bosses to organise new rosters The last few days have been gorgeous and sunny So I've been spending most of my days outside reading but that gets boring after a while My exercise regime is non-existent at the moment I just don't have the motivation I think I need someone to push me around and bully me into exercising I really would love a personal trainer, but I can't afford it right now I'm still losing weight pretty consistently I'm proud to say that I haven't had a stuc...

Cannot believe how quickly I've lost it It's been 10 weeks since surgery and I lost 10kg with Optifast so I've averaged out a kilo (2.2lb) lost a week since surgery I'm so glad it's been working But I know I still have a lot more to go, and I don't expect the next 20kg to come of as quickly I went shopping with my sister yesterday and it was a really horrible reality check Although I've lost a lot, I still feel uncomfortable in public and still can't fit into alot of clothes Arrgghh I'm more determined as ever to keep going with this =D Just a reminder... Pre Surgery July 2010 & October 2010 (please ignore the face haha)

Pheww that was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders! I'm pretty happy with it My supervisors emailed me and asked if I wanted to to recommend me for a PhD scholarship I was so shocked, I didn't think I was doing that well this year but obviously I was wrong So now I have no more university or schooling until I decide to go back!! Also, last night I went to watch Eat,Pray,Love I thought it was amazing I wish I had the time and money to go escape like that It just made me that more excited about my European trip next year! Band related news now... This fill has been bitter sweet I've lost about a kilo so far so I'm happy with that But I've been getting stuck alot Today I couldn't even eat lunch because nothing would go down I don't want to get unfilled but I don't think I'll get a fill for a while I'll see how it goes I also went to my hairdresser today She's a family friend and I haven't seen her since a few weeks before surgey She was so...

okay so lately I have been PBing after just about everything I eat, to the point that I'm too scared to eat certain foods it's gross, and I am petrified at the thought of eating out I guess I'm still getting used to portions and I feel like I've been eating next to nothing oh, and I don't get that "warning signal" that you are supposed to get that lets you know when to stop eating I feel as though when I eat just one bite too much it just comes straight up I don't think I'm too tight though, I mean I can still eat, just sometimes it won't go down I'm scheduled in for another fill on the 27th and right now I'm considering not even getting it depending on how much I lose until then But did this happen to anyone in their first couple of months? I'm hoping it's just a matter of trial and error and eventually I'll learn when to stop eating!

Last night I went to yet another gig (I go to a local gig at least once a fortnight) Anyways, it was my fave aussie band Stealing O'neal You should really check them out! They are so catchy So I've seen them over 30 times now haha but I've never been able to buy any merchandise because their sizes were all too small Yesterday I said stuff it, I'm going to buy something even if it doesn't fit me yet Instead of a large, I bought a medium I've been doing that quite alot lately I keep buying clothes that are too small just so I can say "well I'll fit into it soon" I don't know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing It's a good thing because when I do fit into them it will be an amazing feeling but it's a bad thing because what if I stop losing and can never fit into them?! What have you guys been doing? I have boxes and boxes of old clothes that I used to be able to fit into but are still too small and I can't part with them!

I had my final ever exam this morning Not sure how I went on it, I knew my stuff but it was just a matter of getting it all on the paper in the two hour time limit Just so glad that I have nearly completed my degree! All I have now is my thesis and then I'm all done I went to the concert last night and it was AMAZING! I'm not sure if I mentioned who the band was, but we went to see Paramore I love them so much, but sometimes I feel embarrassed to admit it only because alot of their new fans are young, immature, annoying little girls who I cannot stand! Well my sister and I have followed them from the beginning, about 5 or 6 years We've seen them five times now, but we have never had the chance to meet them My sister admires the lead singer Hayley Williams (you might now her from her most recent duo with BOB on the song airplanes) She was so dedicated that she went to wait at the airport for six hours yesterday and met the band! So jealous because I was stuck at home studyin...

just got home from my 3rd fill I was in the waiting room sobbing because I was watching the Chilean miners being rescued! haha anyways... I was pleasantly surprised when she said I had lost 2kg since I saw her last (3 weeks ago) I seriously thought that I had put on a hundred kgs! haha My fill dr is amazing! I love going to visit and I know she always has my best interests at heart. She was going to put 1cc in, and she said if it's too tight I can go back in tomorrow. Well that's when I told her I have my exam tomorrow morning and she got a bit worried because she didn't want me to be too tight that I couldn't eat or drink in the morning. So she gave me 0.6cc, but I guess if I felt restriction straight away with my last fill then this should help abit I'm going again in 2 weeks so she said she could give me a good fill then if this one doesn't work Fingers crossed this helps!

I'm just on here to complain and vent I am completely stressing out right now and it is not helping my eating habits I have my final exam on Thursday at 9am They don't tell you the exact date of the exam until about 2 weeks before So at the start of this year I bought some concert tickets, thinking that the exam would be before the concert date Well guess what, the concert is the night before the exam! So that's making me stress even more because I can't even enjoy myself I've been studying like crazy and also trying to finish my thesis, which is not going very well because my supervisors are no help at all I'm at my whits end I'm eating crap constantly and keep getting stuck because of stupidity I seriously have had enough of everything! I know I don't have long to go but I hate the fact that I'm sabotaging everything Tomorrow I get my third fill and I am going to beg the Dr to fill me up to the brim ARGH! told you I was going to complain!

I feel like such a failure I was doing so well...and then I hit bandster hell again This is killer I am constantly eating, and old habits are coming back very quickly The scale batteries died today (go figure!) but I can feel that I have gained some weight I think the stress of finishing school and studying for exams is really stuffing up everything I think because of TTOM I'm feeling really bloated and disgusting If I keep going on like this...I'll probably gain back all my weight and it's a horrible thought Cannot wait until Wednesday when I get my fill The first week after my last fill was so great because I could really feel restriction But now all that restriction has gone and I've undone all my hard work =( Arrgghh sorry, just needed to vent!

Okay, so after that gain I thought I should really think about my activity levels At the moment I've still basically living a sedentary lifestyle... and my excuse is uni! I'm always at school at a desk studying But everyone's excuse is that they don't have time and that's how I got this heavy in the first place! So now that uni is over, for the first time in 21 years I can actually dedicate my life to getting fit I have never had a proper break from school So now that my degree is coming to an end, I really have no excuse I also know that if I don't shape up now, I am going to look like a beached whale when I go to Europe next year! Therefore...I ran out to Target to look at what wii games they have I already have wii fit and wii sports, and I like them...but I find that they are just too slow for me I need some good, fast cardio but I also want to have fun I came across this: It is SO MUCH FUN! I am pretty uncoordinated, but I love to dance and I also like boxi...

aarrgghh I was expecting this but I really wish I hadn't It's the end of TTOTM and I do feel bloated but it didn't help that I ate just about everything in sight this week I am so desperate for another fill and I know it's a lame excuse but I have been so stressed because of exams next week and my thesis being due so I haven't exercised and eating well was really at the bottom of my priorities I am really looking forward to November because I will finally be done with school and I am joining the gym!! Oh well...it was only a small gain of 200grams (0.44lbs) but it's still in the wrong direction!

People who deliberately try to rain on your parade! First of all, sorry about the constant posting. I'm fairly addicted to the internet and I had an assignment due so I was procrastinating all morning and putting it off :P But I really just need to vent, and I'm sure you guys will understand why once you read what happened to me today Well as some of you might know, I work at a medical clinic and the doctors are all so sweet and are constantly telling me how proud they are of me. I enjoy working at the clinic however there is alot of bitchiness between the receptionists and some of them really frustrate me. Last week there was a new receptionist who I found out had lap band and she was such a great help. So I go in to work today and for some reason she was unable to work so there was another lady there. I really can't stand working with this particular receptionist. She is snobby and bitchy and lazy. She is constantly on the phone, never doing work, while I'm running a...

Please take a look at Sue's post about changing your blog settings! http://gastriclapbandjourney.blogspot.com/2010/10/some-technological-help.html I really want to follow everyone but people either need to leave me a comment or change their settings in order for me to find their blog links! It's not too difficult, Sue did a great job of making it as simple as possible!

but for some reason when I click on your little follower avatars it won't link me yo your blogs! If I'm not following you then let me know! Oh and if you guys have facebook then add me =) www.facebook.com/alycejo

Everyone should go over and welcome Liz =) She's a gorgeous 20 year old Aussie who I can totally relate with She was only banded recently so I'm sure she would love some support! http://lapbandedliz.blogspot.com/

the doctors tell us not to drink so close to having finished eating! I have broken so may band rules today =( This morning I had some crackers for snack and immediately had a sip of mum's bright purple berry juice. BAD IDEA! I started coughing and the purple liquid came back up again...through my nose! It was disgusting! My nose kept running purple for about 15 minutes That is why I will never drink after I eat! Oh and I got stuck again today and it also came back up again It's taking so long for me to learn what and when I can eat and it's making me so scared to go eat in public Oh well...we can't all be perfect bandsters =P

Check it out! I really should have been studying...but this seemed a lot more interesting The tabs on the right hand side are clickable! Tell me what you think!

Just went for a really good walk with my sister we live in a suburban area...but the street next to ours is amazing because it's like walking in the country it's a gravel road and so many trees around and so peaceful! My sister came with me and we lasted 30 mins Really hope I can keep up the motivation to do it everyday

I have completely lost the plot I've been grazing constantly and having junk The cravings for chips and bread have disappeared But now I've replaced it with cheese and crackers even when I'm not particularly hungry I'm still losing...but not as quickly as I would like I think the restriction has worn off because I never really feel full anymore Going insane right now!