My Rescue Is Possible

So I feel sick now It's not as bad as you might think But I did cheat and I'm paying for it now! Today I had uni 9-5 so all I had while I was at uni was my optifast berry bar But when I got home I was STARVING! I had some of mum's Caesar salad. Luckily she didn't drench it with dressing. It was pretty light But I had too much lettuce and I probably had about a quarter of an egg, some croutons, some bacon bits and some Parmesan cheese And then my sister decided to bake peanut butter and chocolate froster cupcakes!! How selfish right?! As if she didn't know I would crave them! I did have a licks of the frosting :S Arrgghhh I was doing so well! I've decided now that I'm not going to have the 2 remaining shakes tonight

I have fallen in love with this ABCFamily TV show called "HUGE" I'm reading the book at the moment and I've become fascinated with the idea of sending reluctant teens to "fat camp" The show stars Nikki Blonsky who I absolutely adore When I watched Hairspray I was inspired to come out of my shell and be a bit more like her She's exactly my height and looks pretty much the same as me in a bathing suit :P I know it's a teen show but if any of you would like to truly understand what it is like to be a fat teen then this is the show to watch I think one day I would love to go to the States and volunteer in one of these camps But I think it might be a bit hypocritical of me to go once I've had the band Any thoughts?

Disguting, foul tasting magic but still :P I've been on it for 12 days and have lost 6.3kg (i think about 14lb) already I'm just about half way I doubt I could pull another 6kg until surgery though But my surgeon better be damn proud of me And I better not have any problems with a "fatty liver"! I guess it is all going to be worth it in the end though How much did everyone lose pre-op?

This morning I am officially under 120kg...119.7kg to be exact :P I have no idea how I ever got to my highest of 127 but I know I will NEVER, EVER, EVER go back there again! Since the start of pre-op on 19/07/10, I have lost 5.8kg and I am so happy and so determined to keep going. My clothes already feel looser and those nasty hunger pains don't visit as often as they used to! So I've decided that if I want to do this properly I have to face those horrible "before" photos and fight my demons. *WARNING* The following photos are horrible and may scar you for life :P Hawaii July 4 2009 (I think I was about 116kg?) January 2010 (not too horrible from behind but still not great!) March 2010 (Don't remember weight)

Oh wow I'm loving my veggies right now I never thought I would ever crave cauliflower or broccoli! Today I invented a new recipe and it was delicious Broccoli and Cauliflower mash - boil some water and add a chicken stock cube and a teaspoon of garlic mince - add chopped up cauliflower and broccoli and boil until soft - drain water - add a teaspoon of dijon mustard, olive oil and pepper - MASH! It's pretty basic but it was so good! The closest I could get to potato mash :P I did however cheat a little today which I'm kicking myself for I had two very thin slices of shaved lite turkey breast and about 6 peanuts I doubt it will affect me too much but it's come to the point in pre-op where I just need to eat some "real" food! How did everyone go on their pre-op? How often did you cheat?

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I don't remember the last time I lost 5kg! I guess that complaining yesterday really paid off And pre-op is getting easier and easier for me Yesterday at work I spent the whole shift searching for easy vegan meals that I could use to mix up my veggies a bit I found this beautiful recipe which I am basically going to make every night because I love it! Green Beans with Colored Peppers Ingredients: 1 handful green beans 1 teaspoon lemon juice 1 teaspoon Dijon mustard 1 tablespoon chopped fresh or 1 teaspoon dried basil leaves 2 teaspoons chopped fresh or 3/4 teaspoon dried thyme leaves 1 tablespoon olive or vegetable oil 1/4 cup red bell pepper, cut into strips 1/4 cup green bell pepper, cut into strips 1/2 teaspoon salt Freshly ground black pepper, if desired Directions: 1. In 12-inch skillet, cook green beans on Stove-Top as directed on bag. Drain; place beans on plate and loosely cover to keep warm. 2. Meanwhile, in small bowl, mix lemon juice...

So I've been on pre-op for a week Lost 3.5 kg...but haven't lost anything in about 3 days It's so frustrating because I'm always starving and I'm making sure I drink my 2l of water a day What more do I need to do?!!!

Argh I hate people who try and scare you out of doing things that you know you need! I just came across this site and I am now scared as hell to get banded =( http://www.fatlotofgood.org.au/?p=226 Have a read and please tell me that this is rare and probably won't happen to me! I know people have complications because they already have pre-existing conditions, but it still scares me! I don't have diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure or anything else for that matter. Hopefully the incidents mentioned in the article are 1 in a million

And I'm actually glad I did! As most of you know, I decided to take a break from my pre-op diet because I started a week early. Well the other day mum and I went to Costco and she bought a pack of bagles. I haven't had one in ages and I was craving it. So I had one this morning. And I felt stuffed! I regret having one but then I know that if I didn't now then my band might not even let me eat them after surgery. It's 1.30 and I just had lunch. I was just going to have a shake but then mum reminded me that once I start pre-op tomorrow I won't be able to eat any solids until post-op. I'm not necessarily craving junk, I just wanted something fresh. I was actually craving some fresh ricotta cheese. So I had 2 rice crackers with ricotta, tomato and some shaved ham. It was so good! But I am so full and I doubt I could eat anything until dinner! It's amazing how these last few days on optifast has already decreased my appetite! Last week I probably would have had a...

So I have a dilemma i have been 100% perfect on pre-op so far but now I'm regretting doing it an extra week I know I can stick to it for the whole four weeks if I put my mind to it But the surgeon and dietician only advised me to do it for 3 weeks so that means I would have started this Friday So my question is...Do you think it would be okay to just have whatever I want tomorrow and then start again on Friday? I'm not craving junk food...all I've wanted these past 3 days is a sandwich with avocado and ricotta (I have no idea why!) Basically I just want to know how important pre-op is Like I said, I've been 100% perfect and I know I will be perfect the few weeks before surgery But surely my liver isn't going to get all fatty after one day? Arggghhh

Welcome to all my new followers It's good to know that I'm not on here talking to myself :P Day 3 of Optifast and 3.2 kg down. I know I shouldn't weight myself everyday but the loss I see on the scales every morning is the only thing keeping me going! I can already feel that my clothes are a bit more comfortable. On an unrelated note, I got the best news this morning and I need to share my good news! Not sure if I have told any of you, but I am currently in my final year of a Psychology degree (in my honours year) and today I got the mark back for my literature review. My project is looking at the mental health impact of family relationship counselling, and I'm working with a counselling center and comparing client's pre- and post- counselling surveys. So I got a high distinction!! That's the highest you can get! I was so shocked. I never feel confident in my work, even though I have excellent grades. But what surprised me even more was that my supervisor would ...

So here is a montage of all the beautiful, curvy, confident women I admire and strive to be like/look like BETH DITTO = CONFIDENT - She is an amazing singer and although I wouldn't try and emulate her style, she is everything I would love to be when it comes to ultimate body acceptance and confidence - This girl is fierce, I admire her for not caring what others think of her (She even posed naked on the cover of a magazine!) KAT VON D, PEACHES GELDOF & KELLY OSBOURNE = UNIQUE - These girls epitomise everything I would love to be - They're gorgeous, curvy and unique - Tatts are amazing. You either love them or hate them. I love them! - I've always had a girl crush on Kat von D...I would definitely turn for her ;P MARILYN MUNROE & BETTIE PAGE= PIN UP GLAM - I've always been fascinated by curvaceous pin ups - I wish that having curves didn't mean that you were "plus size" - These women prove that you don't have to be stick thin to be beautiful MOD...

I feel like a cow right now! I decided to take some full body photos just for my eyes only When I looked in the mirror I didn't feel too bad about myself But the photos were hideous. I don't even recognize myself I feel disgusting today At least it's keeping me motivated to stick to this pre-op I know that once I get the band I am going to work my ass off to get to goal Just on a side note... What has been everyone's experience with excess skin? Mum keeps telling me that the slower I lose the weight the less chance I have of being left with a tonne of saggy skin I'm not sure how true that is, but that's what I've always thought I know that weight loss with the band might not be super fast, but alot of you have lost incredible amounts of weight and I'm just curious to see what condition your skin is in

Lost 1.7kg Hunger pains got bad towards the end of the night But I kept thinking about how successful all of you have been and I want that too so I stayed strong! Let's hope it gets easier from here

Argh my mum really frustrates me We've never really gotten along, but as I got older I learnt how to handle her All in moderation But lately she's really been doing my head in For some stupid reason she is absolutely against me getting this surgery Okay, I know she is scared But it would be really good if she at least supported me She's so ignorant. She won't listen to me when I explain the procedure She doesn't understand why I need to do something so drastic But she's always the one to point out how big I am I don't want to cry but it really makes me sad

Arrgghh I was doing so well this morning Now I'm starving I still have half a dessert and another shake to finish but if I have them now I know I will be starving later on How do I get rid of them?!! It's freezing so it is so hard to get all my water in :(

I apologise in advance for all my blog posts for the next few weeks...It's just an exciting time for me :D So today is day one of my pre-op diet I've already made my jelly and have my optifast chocolate dessert in the fridge Today I'm having a strawberry shake, chocolate shake, roast veggies from last night and for dessert chocolate optifast and diet jelly. Oh and my 2 litres of water! Doesn't seem like much and I'm scared I'll get really hungry later on So I'm going to divided up the chocolate dessert and jelly and put them into little cups and have them throughout the day and I'm going to half each of the shakes and just have smaller glasses when i'm hungry It seems like that could work but it's already 10.20am and I haven't had my breakfast yet. I don't really get hungry in the mornings so the later I eat the better...less chance of feeling like my stomach is eating itself!!! I'll update you tonight on how I went :D

Before I am going to completely start my pre-op yesterday marked 4 weeks before surgery eeeeeeeeppp im so excited! Last night I went out to a local club thinking that it would be the last time I'll be having alcohol in a while and I was planning on getting smashed I had 2 Vodka Raspberries and that was it for me I used to be able to drink so much, So I guess it's a good thing now that my body rejects it Tonight mum's making a roast, something we've been waiting for since they left 2 months ago! I'll keep you updated on how pre-op goes Have a great weekend guys :)

are heaven!! They're not horrible, they're just too heavy So I started cutting them up and having them as lollies throughout the day but those berry crunch bars are the best! I'm sure I can live off them for the next month! plus my shakes I bought the dessert. They make a huge portion though! So I'm going to mix it with some diet jelly and make a few cups worth and have that when I'm hungry I think I'll be fine I'm going to survive it!!!

Well not so much a risk but I've decided that I want to do an extra week of the Optifast pre-op diet This Friday will make it 4 weeks until surgery! and as much as I dread the optifast, I'm more nervous that my liver isn't going to shrink enough and I'll have to reschedule my surgery So instead of the 3 week diet i'll be doing it for 4 weeks I'm off to the chemist now to spend a fortune on this stuff...but hopefully i'll see some results each week so it will motivate me! What was everyone's experience with their pre-op? I know i'll be hungry but I start back at university this week so I'll be busy!

Hi everyone :D Hope you are all doing well! Last night/early this morning my sister and I went to pick up mum and dad from the airport 8 weeks away is a very long time and I missed them so much especially my dad...I'm very much a daddy's girl :P So we got home at about 3am but were so eager to see what they had brought back for us Relatives in Malta like sending us back alot of junk... but this time all the gifts were actually really great we got alot of money, a nice purse and some little trinkets I didn't want mum and dad to buy me much from there, but I knew they would be stopping in Dubai so I asked them for a black bag that I could take to uni They bought me the most awesome Jimmy Choo bag ever!! It's fake of course...but it looks 100% real, and I LOVE it!! It's the best, I'm going to guard it with my life! and last night was the first time that mum acknowledged the surgery and actually had good things to say about my decision She's not all that happy t...

Sorry for the constant posts today! But reading everyone's blogs is getting me excited about the whole prospect of losing weight I was talking to my sister about my goals I don't want to set myself up for failure, I want to make realistic goals I've been told that setting a date to achieve each goal may not be the best way to go about it So how do I do it?! My surgery is exactly 20 weeks before New Years eve...So I thought I might reward myself if I lose 20kg (44 lb) by that time. But I don't even know if that's possible! I know everyone is different, but what is your average weight loss? Is 1kg a week pushing it? Should I instead aim for half a kg (1 lb)a week?? I just don't know what to expect!! I also had a look at how much I would need to lose to get to a healthy BMI at the moment i'm 5ft and 124kg (273 lb) so my BMI is 55 (morbidly obese) to get into the healthy range, I need to get down to 55kg (121 lb) that means I would need to lose about 70kg (154 l...

So my parents have been in Europe for 8 weeks and are coming back home tomorrow My sister and I have had the house to ourselves and I actually really hated it! We miss fresh, home made food. Although we have actually experimented quite a fair bit with our own recipes, nothing will ever compare to mamma's cooking! The downside of their return is that the first thing she will most likely ask is "how much weight have you put on since we've been gone?" They went away for 8 weeks 2 years ago and that's exactly what she did...and she could tell straight away that I had put on a few kgs But this time I haven't! Well I did the first few weeks because my sister and I pigged out a bit to celebrate our freedom But last week I did a few days of Optifast and I lost 3kg so I'm back to where I started But I'm also going to trick her into thinking I lost weight :P A few weeks ago I bought a new pair of jeans as I was desperate for a new pair and I fell in love with a ...

Hi lovely followers :) I'm pretty sure most of you have or are getting the band so welcome and good luck! Last night I found a disc with all the photos I saved from when I was at my lowest weight When I was in my final year of high school, I joined a program called Sureslim and I lost 30kg...It was so easy but required so much willpower Thinking back now, I actually have no idea how I managed to stick to it so well. It was small portions and absolutely no snacking! It seems tough now, but it was a breeze for me back then. Probably because I was in school, had a good routine and I lived off everyones compliments But then I finished school, I turned 18, I started to drink, I got confident and I lost friends. At the time, I didn't see myself as "skinny". I still had really horrible body issues and although I seemed confident, I never once felt good enough. I continued to feel fat. That put me in a really bad place. I fell into a terrible depression. Spent Christmas home ...

Hello! Hi? How do I begin? Well here's a little bit about me: I'm Alyce Melbourne, Australia 21 yrs Final year of Psychology degree ...and I'm fat! Have been since I was a child Have struggled with it since I was a child Have been dieting since Primary School Have finally reached my last resort! This blog is going to be an outlet for me to document my experience with the Lap Band (an adjustable band that will be fitted around my stomach) At 8am August 13 2010 , I'll be in surgery This will probably be the best and worst day of my life Best, because it will give me hope that maybe one day I'll be able to be proud of myself and I may finally be happy with my body Worst, because it will be the most drastic, scariest thing of my life So I've been waiting for this day to come since mid-last year Had to wait one full year for my insurance to kick in but I've probably been waiting for this day for my whole life This is the only option that has provided me with the ...