I'm back from the States!!

Finally home!
I have been in the USA for the past four weeks and having the best time
We went to LA, San Fran, Vegas, New York and Chicago
I absolutely fell in love with New York. The most amazing city!!
I ate and drank like crazy but surprisingly lost 1kg!
I was so active, walking everywhere and cycling through central park...and I was also using the gym at the hotel

I ate and ate and ate!
In-n-Out burger, NY pizza, hot dogs, pretzels, Giradelli chocolate, Giordanos deep dish pizza pie...the list goes on!
I was seriously expecting to have gained 10kg, so I was ecstatic when I realised I had actually lost weight!

I went for a fill this afternoon and my doctor was so proud of me. I arrived on Saturday and was straight back at the gym on Sunday morning. I am so determined to lose the rest of this weight. 2013 will be an amazing year!!

Attention those from the US/Avid Travellers!

I'm heading to the US in a few weeks
I've already booked most of my trip:
- LA
- San Francisco
- Las Vegas
- New York

I've been to the US before and have been to Washington DC and Florida so I would like to go somewhere new

I am considering Chicago for a few days
Would you recommend visiting? What are the sights that I need to see?

If you can recommend any other cities in the US please let me know!!!

Loss!

Finally, a good loss!
Since my fill on Wednesday I have lost a kilo
and I'm still on my period, so hopefully it will be an awesome loss by next Wednesday!
I've been sticking to liquids until Monday just in case I get stuck and need to take fluid out. In the past I've been caught out on weekends in a lot of pain needing a removal and having to wait until Monday
I have been making amazing smoothies and eating yummy greek yoghurt and have not actually been hungry or craving
I hope, and I am crossing all my fingers and toes, that this is my sweet spot!

CW: 87kg

12WBT Progress

I haven't been a very good blogger lately!

I have been flat out at work and very rarely have time to hop onto the internet other than to check my emails!

Yesterday was my week 5 weigh in for the 12WBT and I gained 500grams. I know I haven't been strict with my diet but I have still be working out daily. I'm not making excuses, but I'm hoping it's just period bloating!!

I've been sticking to most of the main meals of the 12WBT plan, but have been completely off track with the snacks. I've succumbed to all the junk food that mum is constantly bringing into the home. I don't know why I choose junk over healthy, nutritious snacks. It could be laziness but I don't think it's self sabotage. 

I watched Mish's videos about self sabotage last night and it really got me thinking. I have a history of depression and physical self harm. My whole life, I never felt worthy. When I had previously lost a lot of weight, I think I became over-confident. Honestly, I turned into a real bitch. I treated my friends like crap and started hanging with the wrong crowd. When those new friends screwed me over, I had no one. I became severely depressed and all I did was eat and sleep. Part of me thinks that the reason I still eat junk food is because I fear who I would become if I lost all the weight again. Deep down, I really think I would once again turn into that nasty, narcissistic, vain person. I do not want to become her again because I fear the reactions of others. It's a vicious cycle and I don't know how to break it!

It's ironic that I work as a Mental Health Support Worker, and I aspire to become a Psychologist; and yet I have so many problems to deal with myself!!!

I have considered speaking to a psychologist about my food issues but I guess I don't want to seem weak.

Phewww, I'm glad I put that out there!! I don't think I've ever admitted that to anyone. I don't actually think I'd ever realised those issues until today. I will keep pushing through though. I have to!

Fill

Well I haven't been as strict with my diet as I should
My restriction had worn off and I admit, I was taking advantage of it
I know i'm close to my "sweet spot" though!
I only put in 0.1cc today. I'd rather take it slow than become too tight and have to remove all my fill again
Fingers crossed!

New Blog!

I haven't been posting on here lately, only because I have set up a new blog where I will document my progress for the next 12 weeks

Follow me!
I need all the support I can get!

http://alyce12wbt.blogspot.com.au/

To fill or not to fill?

Since my last fill on August 1st, I haven't felt any difference in my restriction
I am still hungry often, even after a meal, and I am consequently snacking more than I know I should
As you might know, I joined the 12 Week Body Transformation challenge and to complete it successfully, it is encouraged to eat exactly what is on the meal plan
Part of me would love to get another fill, but the other part of me knows that if I do get a fill, I won't be able to stick to the program 100%
I have a fill appointment booked for august 29th and then another one on September 26th
I haven't actually recieved my meal plans yet (the 12 weeks begins on August 27th) so i'll guess I'll just wait and see what the recipes involve and decide at the end of this month

12WBT blog

http://alyce12wbt.blogspot.com.au/

follow my other blog to keep track of my progress on the 12WBT

12WBT

So last night at 11:30pm I spontaneously shelled out $200 to join Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation challenge

I have not been feeling that motivated the past few weeks
Since coming back from QLD last weekend, I have only been to the gym once this week
It is ridiculous and I have used the worst excuses ever

I really like the idea of having to work on your mindset as well as your nutrition and exercise. I think that's where I'm lacking. I need to finally get my head in the right place so that I don't keep giving up

The actual challenge starts on August 27...exactly 12 weeks before I head to America!!
In the meantime, I have started the pre-season tasks. I completed task 1 this morning...identifying your excuses
It was such an interesting task. I was so honest with myself and I was able to list just about every excuse I have ever used!

Hoping to complete the rest of the tasks this weekend so that I'm caught up with the other members.

I hope it works! I am going to try my damn hardest!

2 year bandiversary!

Just realised today marks the second year of having the lap band

HW- 126.6kg

SW (day of surgery)- 115kg

CW- 91kg

Total lost: 35.6kg

I have never once regretted having the surgery.
I do regret eating so much crap and drinking so much alcohol in Europe though. My lowest weight in 2011 was 84kg. Unfortunately I gained quite a bit of weight when I got back from holidays but am finally back on track. It has taken me 23 years to actually enjoy working out! In the two years of having the band, I only just started exercising in May this year. It is a long process and is definitely not a quick fix, but it is worth it and I am hoping to be close to goal weight by this time next year!

Sunny weekend!

This weekend my sister and I went up to the Gold Coast to visit friends.
We thought the weather was amazing! It was so sunny and warm. Our friends however, thought it was freezing and kept apologising for the crap weather lol
We ate so much crap :( It's so hard being at other people's homes when they don't know I have the band. My friend doesn't cook so most of our meals were fast food or frozen meals.
I don't think my recent fill made any difference.
I'm not proud of this, but I ate pizza, chicken nuggets, fries, pastries and drank lots of alcohol
We did however, do a lot of walking.
I came home and was quite surprised that I didn't gain any weight
I haven't lost weight in a long tie though. I'm hoping it's because I'm gaining muscle
I have a fill booked in for the 29th August and am definitely going in for another small fill

Here are some photos of the trip :)

 I did not enjoy the "Buzz Saw" coaster at Dreamworld!

 My Sister and I

 Dreamworld was awesome!

Fill and measurements

I finally got another fill.
My doctor is so happy with my progress. According to her scales, I've lost 4kg since seeing her 6 weeks ago. She said she could really tell that I'm slimmer though.
I got another small fill of 0.2cc. Hopefully this is my sweet spot!

I went to PT straight after the appointment and got my measurements. I have lost so many cm's!! 12cms off my waist since starting gym!! He can really tell that I'm toning up a lot.

Hopefully now my diet will improve and I'll be able to reach goal!

Way off track =(

I'm still working out like a mad woman, but my eating has been way off lately

I'm constantly hungry. I normally eat a bowl of oats at 8:30am and then by 10am my stomach is already growling with hunger.

I'm snacking lots. On fruit, on rice crackers, on yoghurt.

I have a fill on Wednesday and I'm hoping to get 0.1 or 0.2cc put in.

I know I'm close to my sweet spot. When I got my last fill, I could feel that I was close to that "green zone"

I'm hoping that this next fill will be the last one I need for a while.

I'm getting my measurements done this week so hopefully I'll get some good losses :)

My weekend + A Loss!

I had a great weekend

On Friday I went to my second ever AFL match! Geelong Vs Essendon...Go Cats!!
I was with my friend...who can eat a truck load of junk and not even put on 100 grams. I was so over being stuck at a plataeu that I just gave in and ate some junk. Greasy fries and 4 deep fried dimsims...they were gross but I missed all the saltiness

On Saturday I was planning on waking up at 9am for Body Combat but I ended up sleeping in until 11. I hate sitting around the house on weekends so my sister and I decided to go for a bushwalk. We walked for about an hour, up and down hills. Total 4km and burned over 500cals!

I ate like total crap this weekend. I snacked way too much...but I think it's what my body needed! Woke up this morning and was 0.5kg down since Friday :D

Can't wait to hit the gym though. I really feel like crap when I eat so much junk

Still stuck at a plateau

It is driving me crazy!!
My clothes are starting to feel a lot looser so I'm happy about that
But I've been stuck at the same weight for a few weeks now and no matter what I do I still can't shift it!
I've been changing up my gym routine, changing up my diet, sleeping, lots of water etc
Any tips?!

Pilates...dun dun dunnnn

So I tried my first Pilates class after Zumba today
I don't exactly know how I feel about it
It was a little difficult, especially when I had to keep my legs in the air half the time!
It was relaxing, but I don't think it's my thing
Might try yoga instead

Plateau :(

I am stuck!

It's the final day of challenge, thank god

But I'm hovering between 92-93kg and just can't break it...even with optislim!

Any suggestions?

BRB, off to zumba!

Body Step and PT

I went to my first ever Body Step class and it was painful!
It took me a while to get coordinated, and I didn't even put blocks under the step
But at least I tried it, and I will be going again next week

PT was a lot easier this week. A lot less leg work. Did a lot of boxing and weighted squats and lunges.

I'm getting quite a few friends and family telling me to slow down at the gym, and I guess I do actually do quite a bit, but I enjoy it!

Sunday: Zumba
Monday: 30 mins Cardio machines + Boxing
Tuesday: 30 mins Cardio machines + Zumba
Wednesday: Personal Training + Body Step
Thursday: Cardio + Weights + Body Combat + Zumba = Killer Thursdays!!
Friday: Zumba Toning

Phewww!

Optislim Day 3

The weight is just falling off me!!

Started Sunday at 93.5kg.

It's now Tuesday and I am already at 92kg!

It has not been too hard to stick to. I have still had a few snacks to keep me sane, but my caloric intake is always around 800 cals

It's not something that I plan to stick to for longer than a week though

It's just a nice boost, and I really want to impress my trainer at the final weigh in!

Last week of Challenge!

Finally!
This is the final week of my gym's 8 week weight loss challenge
My goal was to lose 5kg
I'm close to that goal, if I haven't passed it already
But just to be sure, I'm going to stick to optislim shakes and vegetables for this week
I'm hoping I'll lose another 1-2kg this week with the help of the shakes
I'm so close to being under 90 kg again!

Slow weight loss

I am working my butt off at the gym
but my weight isn't "falling of me"!

I know that I shouldn't fuss over the scale, but it's a little disheartening
I just want to be back in the 80's! Once I'm there, I won't be so hung up on the number

The last day of the 8 week challenge is July 8
I weighed in on the gym scales and it says i've lost just over 4 kg
I know that I had drank a bottle of water before that, so I'm close to a 5kg loss
But I was really hoping and working for more!

My cousin is trying to get me to sign up for this program she has been on
She has lost an incredible amount of weight on the Neways "Easy fat release" program but it involves a lot of pills, supplements and it costs a fortune

I'm interested, because it's all about detoxifying the body but it's a lot of money

I told her I would let her know in August when my parents get back

Personal Training!

I did my first box jump!
I thought I was going to break my neck!!
I am feeling so much stronger than I did at day one

My trainer even said that I could be a personal trainer in the future! I wouldn't mind it, but I've already decided that I'm going to be a zumba instructor when I get to goal weight =D

Did I ever mention that I'm really enjoying gym? haha

Hangover + Body combat =

HELL!!!

I haven't had a drink since the end of April, before signing up to the gym
But this weekend is my sister's big 21st weekend so I made an exception!
Last night I had a few too many vodka waters and sambuca shots and man oh man did I feel it this morning!
I felt like absolute shit, but my sister and I were determined to go to Body combat so we sucked it up and went!
Our gym launched all the new les mills programs today so we really wanted to go to the new body combat so we aren't behind next week
Holy hell was it intense!!
I was panting and puffing, the instructor was hard core and didn't let us slack off!
I felt so much better after it though, more energy and ready to take on the big 21st party tonight!
Tonight's menu is pizza and finger food and cupcakes :S
I think I'll stick to some light dumplings and maybe one cupcake :)

Week 4 weigh in

Well I skipped last week’s weigh in because it was that time of the month

Today is my 4th weigh in for the 8 week weight loss challenge I’m in

Goal was to lose 5kg (11lbs) in 8 weeks

SW- 97kg (213.4)

2 weeks ago (28/5/12): 95.6kg (210.32)

Today (11/6/12): 93.7kg (206.14)

Loss- 1.9kg (4.18lbs)

I am so happy with that!

nearly 2kg in 2 weeks is exceptional for me! My goal was at least 0.5kg each week

Since starting the challenge on 14th May, I have lost 4.5kg (9.9kbs)! In 4 weeks!

I have 4 weeks to go, and technically, I only need to lose another 0.5kg :)

*starts happy dance…zumba style!”

I worked out for 3 hours today!

Who knew I had it in me!

Workout one:

10 mins elliptical

10 mins bike

10 mins rowing

2 sets of: (3kg/6.6lbs dumbbells)

15 chest flys

15 lateral raise

15 front raise

20 bicep curls

10 tricep kickbacks (left arm)

10 tricep kickbacks (right arm)

That was around lunchtime.

Now I just got back from a Body Combat class (OUCH!) and Zumba!

I struggled in body combat. My port site was hurting when we did Ab work...I'm guessing I'm still a bit tender from yesterday's fill?

I got a tiny fill...

and lord I hope I didn't push the limits
I've lost 3kg since seeing the doctor last and she was really happy about that (it's been a month)
I just feel like I'm snacking too much and my portions are still slightly too much than I should be eating
She put in 0.2cc
Fingers crossed that this is my sweet spot!

Today's workout

Zumba in the morning! Gosh I love it so much!

And in the evening I did Day 2 of the 30 Day shred
I really did not want to do the shred, but I've eaten so much crap this weekend and its that time of the month

I've really been struggling lately to decide whether I need a small fill or not
I've got an appointment for Wednesday, and although I've lost weight this month, I still find myself snacking and my portions are not the "half cup" that we are told to eat with the band

The only thing that I'm concerned about is being too tight
I know that I am close to my sweet spot, I just don't know how close!
I haven't had any "stuck" moments since my last fill so that's good

I guess I'll ask my doc and see how I go. I might just add 0.1cc...would that even make a difference?

Anyways, I shall leave you with a picture of my sweaty face after the shred!

30 Day Shred

Today marks the beginning of hell…AKA Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred!

Just completed L1D1 and all I can say is OUCH!

Jillian sure did kick my butt and she didn’t even ease me into it…drop and start push ups within the first 5 minutes!

I had to do the modified EVERYTHING!

I couldn’t even do jump ropes for the entire time, I had to keep alternating legs

And those bicycles are killer! I did them at personal training and the trainer kept pushing me to go faster. But Jillian likes them slow and steady and I could not keep my legs in the air for that long!

I’m proud of myself for completing the whole thing…I was so tempted to quit at the half way mark.

I’m actually starting to see some muscle tone in my bicep, but my arm is still disgustingly flabby!

Personal training! And fill?

Well I just got back from my first personal training session...
it was intense!!


Here's a run down...

3 reps of:

- 20 step ups with medicine ball

- 20 medicine ball squat and throws

- 10 push ups

- 30 seconds dumbbell punches

2 reps of boxing straight punches

2 x 3 stair runs

2 reps of boxing upper cuts

2 x 3 stair runs

2 reps of:

- 20 seconds crunches passing medicine balls

- 20 seconds bicycle crunches

- 20 seconds planks

Also, I have a fill appointment booked in for next week and I'm still debating whether I need an adjustment. I'm losing weight and I'm eating rather well... but my portions are still too big and I'm still snacking a lot

I still haven't wrapped my head around the lap band guidelines...not sure how far from my sweet spot i am and i dont want to risk being too tight again

Any suggestions?

95.0

That's my current weight
I am working so hard and finally the weight has started coming off again
I'm so conscious of everything I eat now, and although I still have treats here and there, I'm not craving junk 24/7
First PT session tonight! I'm excited but nervous

Week 2 weigh in

21/5 - 95.9kg

28/5 - 95.6kg

Loss of 300 grams

It was only small loss but it was a loss so I'm happy!

Week 1 weigh in

First week of challenge done!

8/5/12- 98.2kg (gym consult)

14/5/12- 97kg (start of challenge)

21/5/12- 95.9kg (current weight)

So happy that I'm losing! My band is working great. Restriction is good and motivation is still high :)

Help! Bingeing at work!

I am sitting here at the office alone all day and there is so much junk food floating around!
Jelly beans, cakes, biscuits
I am so bored and I know that I'm experiencing head hunger but once I think about how delicious that cake is I can't stop thinking about it!
I have been so good all week...and I am going to workout hard tonight. But it's so tempting to cheat just this once! :S

Challenge update

I have my first consult for measurements with my trainer on Tuesday

I actually didn't weigh in with my trainer on the first day of the challenge, so technically my start weight is 98.2kg...which was my weight at my first consult on May 8th

This morning (day 4 of challenge) I weighed in at 95.9kg...which means that I've already lost 2.3kg. Nearly half of what I set myself to lose in 8 weeks!

I am doing really well at the gym. I've been 4 times this week. I feel like I'm pushing myself...but maybe not as much as I can. That's why I'm going to start personal training soon. Looking forward to it but I'm nervous!

Motivated!

I think I've found the motivation that I had at the start of my lap band journey
The fill has done wonders. It's been a week since I got the fill and my hunger levels have dropped dramatically.
I eat only because it's that time of the day and I'm supposed to, but I don't crave and I don't constantly search for something to nibble on
I am working out so hard at the gym.

Sunday is zumba, Monday is boxing and the remaining 3 or 4 sessions is my plan which is hardcore cardio.
Today's workout involved:

15 mins treadmill- 5kph with minute runs every 5 mins
10 mins elliptical- 75-80rpm (so painful! had to push really hard)
20 mins recumbent bike- interval resistance between level 2 and 4
2 x 15 lateral raise
3 x stair runs lifting 4kg dumbbells
Stretching

I haven't been this motivated in a long time! I'm feeling so positive and I can just taste goal weight!

Weight loss challenge Day one!

I guess I should suck it up and announce my start weight...

14.5.12: *gulp* 97kg *gulp*

But on a good note, according to the gym scales, I have lost 1kg this week. Woo that's a good start!

The rules of the challenge are simple. Log a training session at least 4 times per week and eat well. Easy as that!

First workout was a boxing class. So painful! Stair runs with 2 x 10kg dumbbells was ridiculous! And we did so many crunches that I thought I was going to vomit

I'm sure I can do this. I can and I will lose 5kg in the next 8 weeks :)

Loss!

Total loss of 2.4kg (5.28lbs) in 12 days!
And coincidentally, I started gym 12 days ago on May 1st

So excited!
I've been going to the gym at least 4 times a week and it seems like it's now paying off

Goals and rewards

I am loving the gym right now
In fact, today I am going for two sessions!

I have officially signed up for the 8 week body transformation challenge!
Goal is a mimimum of 5kg (11lbs) in 8 weeks. Seems easy considering I'm eating well and working out...but in the last week and a half since starting gym I haven't even lost a hundred grams :(
Everyone keeps assuring me that I shouldn't expect results straight away and I'm gaining muscle mass...but if I can't even lose 5kg in the next two months then something is definitely wrong.

If I reach my goal, I am using the $50 I win to get a nose piercing. I've wanted to get it done for so long so it's perfect timing!

Last month a won a raffle and the prize was a haircut voucher at this great salon. I've decided that when I lose 10kg I will use that voucher. Between now and losing 10kg, I am not touching my hair...even if it a right mess!

Exciting!

Workout plan

I went for y gym consult today and the trainer was great!
So supportive and he thinks I could do really well.
He put me on a fat burner plan...lots and lots of cardio!
He wants me to workout for at least 45 mins 4 times a week

15 mins treadmill
15 mins elliptical/cross trainer
15 mins bike
5 mins rowing

It seems easy, but he wants me to work hard at it and sweat it out so I won't be taking it easy that's for sure!

Fill

Went for a fill today
Start of TOM so not a great weigh in
But I'm focusing more on getting fit and losing measurements now
I have a total of 4.8cc in a 10cc band
Hope it makes a difference. If not, I have another appointment in a few weeks
Off to the gym for my first consult. Weigh in and measurements eeeeeep!

I love boxing!

Went to my first boxing class today and I absolutely love it! It was a women's only class so it wasn't too intimidating...but the trainer killed us! So many stair sprints and crunches and punches and squats and kettle balls! Such a great workout I have a feeling my body will hate me tomorrow!

New Blog

I have started a new exercise blog since I've started attending gym Check it out! alyceatthegym.tumblr.com Also, i have a fill on Tuesday. Thank Goodness!!! And I also have my first consult at the gym with a trainer on Tuesday. Tuesday will be the beginning of my body transformation!

I'm back!

I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted My weight loss...or should I say gain, has made me too guilty to post about it. But I am ready and back on track I even signed up for the gym!!! I officially started 1st May 2012 for a year contract! Now that's commitment :D I've had two gym sessions so far and I am SORE! But feeling really good about it. I am wearing the bodyfit media calorie band every day and I am sticking to a calorie intake of max 1200 per day I don't feel restriction in my band as yet so I'm just eating clean...my portions are still too big though. But I have a fill appointment on Tuesday 8th May I'm also joining an 8 week body transformation challenge at the gym! Goal is to lose at least 5 kg in 8 weeks. Seems possible. To qualify for the challenge you need to log 4 workouts per week so I have no way to cheat because my trainer will be on my back making sure I'm putting in the work!! Things are looking promising! I'm determined to drop a few sizes before November where I will be heading to America for a month! So excited to go shopping :P Hope people haven't forgotten about me! I will be spending this long miserable day at work reading all your posts :)

Not enough calories?

Question to all you successful lap-banders...
do you lose more weight if you stick to 1000-1200 calories a day?
I have a feeling my crappy loss this week is because I am constantly eating very little calories
I've been tracking on myfitnesspal and my daily average intake is between 600-800 calories a day
Has anyone experienced this?
I keep thinking I'm doing the right thing by eating less calories but maybe it has the opposite affect?
I guess this week I shall experiment and I will try to hit a 1000 calorie intake everyday...hopefully I'll lose a bit more!

Shocking weigh in :(

I have done so well this week
I've been eating right, drinking water and have worked out
I am a scale whore so I've been checking daily and at one stage I was down 0.5kg but when I check this morning for my weekly weigh in, it says I'm only down 100gms
What's going on?!
It's so frustrating, I'm so disappointed in myself
Not having a good day :(

One week since fill

and things are amazing!
I am finally losing and I'm feeling great
No PB's, no sickness
I'm very rarely hungry,
I eat about 1/2 cup of food at a time...over a long period of time
I drink lots and lots of water!
And I've been going to Zumba

...If I had done this all along I would have reached goal by now!!!

Weight this morning = 96.1kg
I don't remember how much I weighed on my scales but the doctor's scales showed 97.7kg...and I know that on my scales I was heavier than that so WOOOO!!!

Definitely feeling a lot better...my jeans are already feeling looser!

10 week challenge

I am so motivated to lose the rest of this weight
I've been distracted for too long and was on the path of reversing my hard work
I have 35kg to lose to reach a "healthy" weight range and I know it's going to be difficult

I feel restriction
I haven't been eating much because for the first time I actually forgot to eat! I'm not feeling hungry and I'm not feeling too tight...hopefully I've found my sweet spot!

I've set myself a challenge to lose 10kg (22lbs) in 10 weeks
I know it's ambitious but I think I can get close

I guess it's time to admit my current weight...
96.5kg...it means I've gained a hell of a lot since being back from overseas :S
But now that I've admitted it I can get back on track

10 in 10 challenge stats:

HW- 126.6kg
CW- 96.5kg
GW for challenge- 86.5kg

Last weight in: 21st May 2012

New look for a new start :D

Life on the band front is good. I don't want to jinx myself but I think I'm at a good level of restriction. Still on soft foods for the weekend but I'm feeling in control and definitely feeling fuller for longer

Let's hope this weight starts dropping again!

Fill & Loss!

Went for my fill today with yet another lovely new doctor

To my surprise I have lost 1.8kg since my fill last week :)
Very happy with that
I think though that the loss is due to loss of water weight and also the fact that I did liquids for most days this week so I was on a very low calorie diet which I can't possibly keep up with for more than a few days at a time

I did feel slight restriction but I was still very hungry most of the day so I decided to get another small fill of 0.4cc.
The doctor took all the fluid out to check the measurement so I now have 4cc in a 10cc band and hopefully this will be close to perfect!

Zumba!!

Why did it take me this long to try it out?!
I loved it!!
Such an awesome work out
I'm going mondays and thursdays from now on
I love to dance and I think i'm pretty good....i probably looked like an idiot dancing away but i felt hot inside :P
When I reach goal I think I will learn salsa dancing and move to spain :P

By the way...
fill seems to be doing its job so far but it's too early to tell.

Todays intake:

- 2 x cappuccino (no sugar, light milk)
- optislim shake
- optislim and banana smoothie
- bacon, leek and potato soup
+ loads of water!

I feel in control so far

It's time to tell the truth...

Hi my name's alyce and I'm a failure
I have been rather quiet on here and it's because I've had a four month binge and have lost all control
I started a new full time job in January and since then I have been working hard and have put my weightloss on the backburner.

Today I finally went back to the clinic to face my doctor
Luckily I was booked in to see a new doctor (who is lovely!)
I jumped on the scales and of course I had gained weight...and a lot of it.
10kg to be exact...and that's since december

I am so ashamed and disgusted but luckily the doctor I saw was really understanding and so so helpful. I haven't felt any restriction at all...eating steaks and bread is like eating slider foods!
I give no excuses. I ate like a pig and this is what I have to accept.

But I'm ready to start again.
My clothes aren't fitting properly and that's what hurts the most. As much as noone has told me to my face that they can notice I've gained, I know they are thinking it.

I really would love to get back in to blogging again and I know you will support me